Day 7 - friendship and divulgence

I just had a drink with a really old friend. In truth she is one of my best friends, but we don't ring each other enough anymore.

She has a hedge husband (minted spouse who runs prolific financial anomaly to do with hedges) and 2 kids, whereas I have drunkards for friends. She leads a fulfilled, sophisticated life. I lurch from one session to the next.

We've all been there.

Actually she made me feel a bit guilty about taking such an anti marriage stance in my book (i believe it is madness to get married before you are 30. Whichever way i look at it doesnt wash!)...

But it was the best conversation I had had in ages.

At first, when she asked me what I was doing, I told her all about the documentary I was making last year and that it was just coming to and end and she nodded and nodded. She already new about the documentary and she new from our other mutual best friend that it was coming to an end. She probably wanted to check I was ok and see if I needed support. So she kept asking me how I was and what was going on.

So I sat there watching myself talk, and then I realised that I wasn't talking about my book, which is all I do all day every day, because I have a paranoia about people thinking 'a book is nothing before it is published', and also saying it at cocktail parties. And because her hedge husband has always represented something intimidating to me - basically a gargantuan financial harvest.

And then I realised everything i was worrying about was bullshit.

A book is at it's most powerful and awesome before it is published. Or rather, before a publisher or critic has butchered it. And my best friend doesn't care one way or another about my finances (or lack of).

She just cares about me.

And I thought 'fuck it'. And told her all about my book - about how it all came from therapy and how everybody seems to have therapy nowadays and about how it is making the world a better place.

And about how I am conjuring a publisher from thin air.

She thinks it will be a best seller. A worldwide, massive best seller. Cue our fantastically brilliant, wonderful conversation.

Do what you love, talk about it like it's already happened and then watch it manifest.

And above all - trust your friends. It feels good.

Writing time: 6 hours

Manifestation: 96%