Day 30 - progress audit

So, we reach 30 days. 6.5 weeks away from the deadline i have set myself - to have a book deal by my 30th birthday.

Time to take stock of exactly how the manifestation of my future as a bestselling author is going.
I am giving myself...

6.5 out of 10.

That may seem harsh. But the reality is I need to step up the pace.

Writing a book, especially a new kind of book (tongue in cheek self help), requires a unique format. Something that hasn't really been done before. And the truth is I have only just hit on that format - it came to me in a flash of light on my weekend of biblical sized breakthoughs.

And thus the content I have created thus far needs to be reformatted and to a certain extent re-written. But such is life - and I will look back upon this and laugh when i walk past waterstone's / barnes and noble and see How To Survive Your 20's twinkling in the window.

I have also realised that I have been dragging my heels somewhat in terms of market feedback - i need to get this blog out there, and i need to create impact and expectation with publishers that will prepare them for finding this, their book of the year. To enable me to do this, I have enrolled in a course over the next 10 weeks designed to get me in front of publishers.

Anyway, enough of the auditing.

How is Landmark sinking in?

Well, I am starting to realise certain behavioural patterns that have been around for as long as I can remember... And more importantly, I know where they came from and why they have manifested over and over again in my life. I can pin down the precise moment when I adapted my most prevalent patterns.

You want to know what these behavioural suits are, when the moment was and what caused it? More on that later.

Throughout yesterday and last night, and dare I say it this morning, right now, as i watch the sun come up over the cemetary i live next to, there is also a feeling of calm. So many people have now told me that I am doing the right thing with my life, that I am finally starting to believe it myself. I have always had the inner belief that 'I can do this', but it has always been tempered with 'but does that mean i should be doing it in this way?'.

I think I now know the answer is yes - because i am already doing it and it feels right. The investment in my future is as authentic as any. I know now I have the integrity and ability to make this happen in a big way.

It also helps that this is my 15th morning without a hangover. There seems to be a pattern emerging. Sobriety breeds rabbit warrens of progress.

The question is: How far down the rabbit hole do I want to go?

I suspect quite far.

But the real impact of Landmark will surely be seen over the coming weeks. The final installment comes tonight at the wrap seminar.

I am looking forward to it.

Writing time: 6 hours

Manifestation: 97%